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Day 26 – Your fears
I am quite an anxious, fearful person, but my greatest fear, and the only thing that can reduce me to a nervous wreck, is the fear of being alone when I'm old.
I don't necessarily mean that I fear not being in a relationship. I came to terms with being single - and being happy being single - a long time ago, and it's been many years since I was upset about that. I mean that I am terrified of living alone, and once I stop being a student, and stop being young enough that it's normal to live in share houses, I'm going to have real problems. I don't really care who I live with (as long as I like them, of course) - friends, boyfriend (and ultimately our family), members of my own family - but the thought that I might have to live alone makes my mind go blank with fear.
A related fear is that I may never have children (either biological or adopted), but I try to ignore that fear because it's a really pointless thing to worry about. But I've wanted to have children all my life, and on my darkest days, the thought that I may not terrifies me.
( The other days )
I am quite an anxious, fearful person, but my greatest fear, and the only thing that can reduce me to a nervous wreck, is the fear of being alone when I'm old.
I don't necessarily mean that I fear not being in a relationship. I came to terms with being single - and being happy being single - a long time ago, and it's been many years since I was upset about that. I mean that I am terrified of living alone, and once I stop being a student, and stop being young enough that it's normal to live in share houses, I'm going to have real problems. I don't really care who I live with (as long as I like them, of course) - friends, boyfriend (and ultimately our family), members of my own family - but the thought that I might have to live alone makes my mind go blank with fear.
A related fear is that I may never have children (either biological or adopted), but I try to ignore that fear because it's a really pointless thing to worry about. But I've wanted to have children all my life, and on my darkest days, the thought that I may not terrifies me.
( The other days )
